Confusion

Confusion.. I do agree the world is built more on grey than white and black add together.. There's no total absoluteness.. but being in which gradient of grey does matter,right? If you're dealing good, the metallic grey is your color, but if you don't, you got yourself caught up in the messed and lost, you got the dull grey...

I'm no where in both...because I don't even realize i'm in grey till now..

Picture taken from Lois Greenfield Photography. Danielle Zuccheri

http://www.loisgreenfield.com/dance/934/amy-marshall_1.html

It means... yet meant not..

This meant not to be read, for it serves only to soothe my heartache.
This meant not to be understand, for it serves no knowledge to others.
But this meant to be feel, with an open-heart by those who love...
And the prelude of the melody goes..

If so are said, time is an antitode, then why do time kill us both?
If so are said, time is parallel, then why can not we see the future?
Is this happening too late, that we lost the time to survive?
Is this happening too early, that we lost the time to fight?

Why do i see myself in your eyes, yet it filled with doubt?
Why do i feel your heart beating, yet it filled with fear?
Shall i soothe you with comfort, to clear your doubts?
Shall i hug with you love, to fight away your fear?

For now, stand beside me just to be closed to me,
For now, talk to me just to filled my brain about you,
For now, blow me kisses just to say you care for me,
And for all, hold on to me just because you love me.



Photo : Hug me, Kiss me, deeply from farshadpix.com photography

真的？

如果我生命是为了你，那么我的生命泉源就一定在你身上，
可我不知道如何找到你，更不知道如何去辨认你，
对你尽有的回忆，总是随着时间让它变得模糊，
甚至开始怀疑‘你’真的存在吗？
想了想，想了又想，我依然相信那回忆不只是回忆，
我相信世上的某个角落，你一定存在，并且也拥有与我同样的思念与渴望。。。

A trip to heaven...

Well.. yeah.. i know Sabah isn't any kind of heaven, not even close... but to me, having to have the time to went there, spent a day with the breezing of the sea is heaven.. I can't miss enough those air i breath there... so lay-back and slow.. i love it.. a place which is not too busy..

Being silence....

Just wanna be totally silence at this particular moment...

I envy those who are simple-minded....

envy? no.. i ADMIRE them for being so wise....

Changes...

It has been a very busy weeks for me recently, busy with works, attending my cousin's wedding at singapore, hanging out with new friends, catching up with old friends etc...  but i just got to realize.. when i finally got myself quietly sitting here, i realize i'm actually feeling down! But why? because I realize how so many things have changed in my life, around my surroundings, among my friends. It's kind of hard to imagine how our thinking are changing along the time. When we're a kid, we want sweets, when we're in school, we want friends, when we're in college, we want to club, when we're working, we want money. And finally when we're tired, we want LOVE, but not any love, a love with so much conditions that drive most of us crazy, empty, fear,  and everything. I wonder how many do really sit down and think and be grateful with all one has at the moment, than to feel envy looking at those who are happily married, earning successfully? We envy others, but never realize that we too, has qualities that others envy, no? So why should we doubt ourselves? Why should we look down on ourselves and look high on others? If you do believe in fate, then you shall believe in the right timing and that, the universe shall has its own way to bring its greatest gift to you. You just need to wait! with Smilez of course. ^-^

Solitude by Rene Asmussen

2009 -> 2010

Happy new year! Well, a brand new year with brand new starts.. believe it or not, I really could feel the shift of energy upon stepping into the year of 2010...   2009, I asked myself, what have i done? what have achieve? is there any regrets? My answers were so much yet so less. I've done so many, opening up a cafe with friends, moving house, break-ups, gathering with old friends etc yet i felt i have done so little.. I wish i could do it better, clean my house, more catch-ups with friends, work harder etc... But if I would have to make a conclusion for the year 2009, is about Growth. I might seem to be a mature-thinker for my age, but the year 2009 makes me feel I'm still such a kid compare to many. There's so much more in life, in business, in friends, in family etc that I have yet to learn and grow. I realize the horizons are bigger for me to explore compare the years ago.. I wish i could visit more places, read more books, gain more knowledge and meet more people in this brand new year. I would love to grow!

"The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise" --- Alden Nowlan

Very true!! I forgave and thanks all who have directly or indirectly comes into my life.. ^-^

Symmetry Green Datura Bud CloseUp Photo by Ferenc Ecseki