Being truthful...

Everyday in our lives, things happened. Some bad and some good. But I tend to believe, everything happen for a good reason. Nothing is ever bad, nothing comes just to bring u bad. It just want us to learn something from it but how many of us really learn through our lessons? We know, all the decisions are actually in our hand, even the decisions to be happy or not. We always say, whatever you decide, you must follow your heart, be true to ourselves but how many can differentiate between your true self feelings and your human ego mind? So little to understand and yet so much to learn, huh? But i always consider myself lucky for i have angels (seen and unseen) around me to remind me to stay firm and be truthful.
Always ask yourself, what do you want now? What you really want now? And don't think! The first answer counts and nothing else! Do not analyze. You just need to answer on first instinct and keep up to do it. Do not be afraid of the consequences or toughness it brings for it will fall in pieces for you once you've taken the first step.

"No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true." -- Nathaniel Hawthorne from the Scarlet Letter

"To go wrong in one's own way is better than to go right in someone else's." -- Fyodor Dostoevksy from Crime and Punishment

"All a man can betray is his conscience." -- Joseph Conrad from Under Western Eyes

So.. how many dare to be different to follow your own true heart?

 

Picture info - Trueself from www.true-self.org/

Quite an interesting website..

 

Right and righteous

Sometimes, what is right to most of the people doesn't seem to be the right for you. Those who fit perfectly to other people's lives doesn't seem to fit yours. But yet, we always choose to follow the path where majority thinks it's right without thinking if it's righteous for us. Thus, we follow and we regret, we blamed others.

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt (Former First Lady)

I personally thinks that Roosevelt got the point here. It is your heart that truly determines what's right for you and you just have to admit sometimes what's right for your heart and you, seems to be the wrongest thing to do. But if you don't act with your heart, in the end, you'll find yourself LOST, not knowing what's right and wrong anymore. Which is worst? I pick to follow my heart. Admitting that you're a bad or lame person, is really not that hard if you enjoy what you have...after all, who leads your life other than yourself? Don't let others influence you, it shall always be you and yourself.

Picture info : Soft Pink Smoke by Pink Sherbet.. 
I don't smoke, but this is an interesting composition, especially the pink lips and female.. Something worth pondering..

Twin Flame

O' Twin Flames,
If so are called to address the brightest light between human,
Then so are the truth of those seekers,
Who have spent endless time in search,
For all believe IT is the cure of all evil, and the fruits of the heaven above.

But O' Dearest,
Have you not remember the true core of all lives?
Whom all serves beyond the endless time,
In which you named higher than the universe,
Where the divine space you first chose your twins on earth?

So O' the Chosen One,
Why do I see tears in your eyes which my reflection marks?
Have u been regretting your choice?
Or have clouds clouded your faith?
But both either none;
shall you grant yourself the courage to stand along me,
The Promise of the Heaven Earth shall remains till the earth dies.

And for all the memories of lives,
Are all recalls of the moment the contract signs.

Love.

如果你不够了解我，何必说了解？ 还是真的是我不够了解自己？

说真的，世界上到底有多少人真正了解自己？ 是自己不让别人了解，没有说清自己的感觉呢？还是大家都只从自己的观点去看别人？我虽然我自己一直都认为做错了就要认，而我也是属于勇敢认错的人（至少我真的这样觉得。。><) 只是我也会说明我为什么会生气啊，说话不好啊。。还是什么的，但我真的会认，也会说对不起，只是也希望把自己的想法也说出来而已。。。

结果却被人认为我只是在找借口，完全没有认错。。这去话真的深深刺痛了我的心。。或许别人的想法和看法不一样，但我是真的用真心去对待的，也真的诚心认错，只是也会表明自己的想法而已。。难道真的有错吗？

我承认，我这个人真的很在意别人对我的看法，所以当被人这么说时，真的快令我哭出来了。。因为我真的很痛，用真心对人却换来这样对我的误会。。。所以我现在也在忍着不哭，因为如果我对朋友说，我一定会马上就哭得。。。

我做错了吗？

Poem - On the horizon

I could have use the most melodious voice,
Showing the most heartbreaking face of beauty,
Biting hard on every words I speak to you,
But I did not, for that would have easily sway your thoughts,
Bringing you nothing but the pang on heart which I am so familiar of.

My Precious One,
I might not be the most inteligent on earth,
For I am just as selfish, as cruel, as notorious as the rest,
But I saw your angel standing beside, my fairies singing on my ears,
Speaking only the important truth that you must know.

In this Universe, we have came for a purpose,
So sincere, so luminious, that easily caught the eye of the dark,
Bringing us confusion, urge, selfish, and so much many more,
But if, there's a second for us to ponder, for each and every,
We shall know, there is ONLY ONE PATH which leads to the REAL DESTINY,

And for that, we are like the smallest ant, keep dying and reviving,
Falling and learning, till we ever, ever, with our very own power and will,
To admit and receive nothing but the best in us.
Till then, my precious one, With my angels and faeries,
I shall be standing beside you.

Some thoughts to share...Meditation!!!

After going throught the Awaken the Divine You course... well, be honest, i never tot I'll have homework after course! And 90 days! OMG! but yea.. so i agree i was lazy, keeping it away for quite a while.. but i decided to do it! (well, u know sometimes i AM really determine enough to do a lot of things).. so this is the.. sixth day? And i guess i see the results of it, not something major, and the homework isn't really that hard to follow after all... Basically just a little meditation everyday after wake up. It's really about a person mindset every morning to determine one's day after that. Keep yourself positive and happy! And everything shall come naturally to your way the whole day. And I have been keeping my temper for this sixth day! (not that I'm really bad tempered... but at least I don't get mysel frustrated so easily, keep things easy!) And I get to see things clearer.. feel the blessings... and all and all and all... And I really start to wonder... if these 90 days passed, what would become of ME? i guess it's a surprise out there waiting for me to receive and i just can't wait to see!
p/s Oh ya, darl, I really started to pen down a book..(just started).. would like you to follow-up for me actually.. :P

Walking through the right path...

Finally I think I start to c things clearer and better.. walking through this path of life since i agreed to participate myself in this business, things have been hard and harsh, more downs than ups i must admit... but thanks to all i have, with frenz and collegues so helpful n good, n of cuz not to 4get ah shen^^.. things have been much clearer and easier and even i can start to c the road of future shines through the way... I am now hoping nothing but the best for Fairy's Garden.... hopng as it name sounds, it is blessed by lotsa Fairies along the way. To make each n every feel as homely and as be-friend with all of us who work inside? It's time to work hard!!!! All of us need to survive! It's time to work hard and earn lotsa money! Really hope for a bright bright future for Fairy's Garden as soon. Again, let's hope for nothing but the best to occur at everything I do, with hope, with love, with care and with lights along the way. May all of us be blessed by our very own fairies! ^^

I plan...

hmm.. i actually plan to write more poems, both english and chinese maybe... feel like gathered it all and become a book..haha~~~u think can?

Back!!

Ok, so where am i now after such a period of time leaving my blog empty? Oh yeah, so let's update..
Things are fine, valentine's coming and i have promotion on hand but my florist catalog still left 40% undone... then err, yeah, my shop is confirmed as the venue for the coming up 8tv malaysian drama(those youngsters drama, ou xiang ju?) hm.. hey, heard this drama is hiring a hongkong director leh... dun play play...haha... darl chyi, u can come be 'ke le feh' if u want, they say need ppl de...hahaha~~~
and then, CNY coming! ya~ finally finish buying new clothes (only that few pieces wat) and best of all, mum brought me a cheongsam!!! (wonder other than new year, when will i EVER wear it?)hahaha..... so guess things are like tat for the moment..
chyi ar chyi, i wanna go help out ur center ler... i mean i REALLY dun mind helping you washing ur centre IF only u tell me earlier.. haha~~ ganbatte! anythg, jez gimme a call~
CNY, let's play hard!!! p/s I have holiday from the CNY eve till the forth.. so let's plan!